Im so sorry to hear of your losses My lovely hubby died last November and Im heartbroken RIP all of those who we have lost and miss So sorry Susan. You’ve been through alot i can’t even begin to understand your pain. It sounds like you are a very strong woman. I pray you have faith. So you can have our Lord carry you through these hard times Ps i lost my husband to colon cancer 3 years ago and he was also only 57. Good luck to you. It took me three years to face the Floss like a boss shirt he was gone.